“To love him completely, was to accept that one day he would exit life just as tragically as he had entered. Naked, alone…and plagued by a lifetime of grief, which had escaped limitations long ago. “

Everything is so quiet now…
You’ve left the door wide open.
I can’t yet glimpse the integrity left behind…
I only find pieces of all that is broken.

Feeling your presence carry over from when we were children…
Arrive to exist, my bruised account- recollections surrounded by red.
Divided from the protection of my sibling, deceased…
I am absolutely devastated that you no longer physically exist.

How did it come to this?
Where did the time take you?
Why couldn’t I save you?
And, how do I move forward since you are gone?

Silence has remained a ceaseless companion throughout my life…
Keeping me sedated for as long as I can recall.
But, now these recurring screams arrive, violently pulling apart my calm…
If only because, there is so much yet to be spoken aloud.

You are still breathing in my heart…
And, although I am not ready to take leave just yet…
I cannot stay in this place of despair much longer either…
Because, it overwhelms me to contemplate everything I should have enacted in hindsight.

“I know, I will not drown in this forever…
I know, I will not mourn your loss forever…
However, one thing I will forever do, I know…
Is love you dearly, for as long as I am alive.”