“A moment in time, forever held prisoner within my heart- bearing one single wish: to release me from the ravages of this loneliness buried inside.”
This last month has been a trip to hell and back.
I am slowly returning from what felt like an eternity spent in mourning- though, in reality, it has not really been so long at all.
My incapacitating tears are flowing less frequently now.
And, the only part of this whole experience which I don’t lament- is the insane quantity of work to come barreling forth. An unstoppable wave of show and tell.
I suppose visualis asemblé was all I could do to quell the deep sorrow.
Complete immersion to silence the voice of my blues.
My survival instincts kicking in…
The subject of death is never an easy undertaking for anyone.
But, it is even less bearable when this painful matter involves a family member passing on into the greater unknown.
There are so many amazing memories to recount. So many regrets finally put to rest. And a revival of nuance that only now am I able to recognize in his absence. The one element towering above all others, which I must come to terms with…is that he was too young to disappear like this.
Then again…we all have to die sometime. And, so it is…another day is born.
Alas, here I am standing on my feet again. I choose to remember all of the enrichment that having him in my life provided. He was a wonderful brother..and an even greater man.
Two months, and two weeks later…
The blackened cloud has now drifted onward to another camp in the distance.
Once again, I return to the stance held firm before this storm arrived and swept me off my feet…
I have my brother to thank for this inspiration of moving onward in haste.
In the coming days I will post my visual journey.
Until then? Keep yourself safe from harm, and we shall meet again soon~